“I put a piece of paper under my pillow, and when I could not sleep I wrote in the dark.” – Henry David Thoreau
I know having a hard time sleeping is a normal pregnancy symptom, but jeez! I’ve gone from being someone who can drop to sleep in a heartbeat (sometimes with my eyes wide open) to tossing and turning at night. I’m doing more barrel rolls than a stunt pilot!
Have you ever looked down at your body and instead of feeling any dismay to it’s changing you get a spark of excitement?
Everyone reaches a point in time where their hobbies/interests are put aside for the importance of focusing on their family.
A little more than six months ago I was racing around a track with thirty other girls, on skates, beating the snot out of each other. I’m seventeen weeks pregnant now and although i’ve hung up my skates for time being, i’m experiencing a totally different type of adrenalin rush!
I’ve started blogs in the past and i’ve never really got in to writing my thoughts down, but now I am filled every day with new experiences, new questions and; I’m not going to lie, new worries. I want to share this journey with my readers, if it’s just my family and friends, I wan’t you to take this ride with me.
Today I flicked through photo’s on my facebook, mainly of me skating and realized my body has changed drastically in the last few months, and for the first time I looked at myself in the mirror and felt a real purpose for these changes. Fitness is one thing, but today I realized nothing comes close to finally wrapping your head around the thought of growing a new life. I’ve always felt vulnerable when discussing my body image, it’s been such a ride of up’s and down’s, loving what I see and hardly being able to look at myself at all. It’s so refreshing to have a new outlook!
Now where does skating fit in this new chapter of my life? Of course I can carry on skating, no contact and come back after the baby. But am I going to hold back now? Now that i’ve seen what my body can do, what it can really do. We’ll see.