Goodness, it’s really been quite a while since I sat down to write anything. I’m not sure why I haven’t spent time doing this, but I’m here now… waiting for the words to come. This feels more difficult than usual. I can’t even recall where I last left off.
I guess I could fill you in on the year so far.
January was uneventful, as the start of the year always seems to be. It was an unusually cold winter this year with tons or rain. The kids had many opportunities to jump in puddles and get extra muddy!
February, I applied for my US citizenship. Not something I planned on doing, but now is as good a time as ever to do it. Things are already moving quickly with the application and I have my biometrics appointment this coming week. Calvin started karate and absolutely loves it! He’s made some friends and it’s giving him extra lessons in focus and discipline, much needed for crazy four year olds!
And here we are at March. March so far has been busy! Calvin is registered for TK (Transitional Kindergarten) for this coming school year, Mia has had her language evaluation for her speech delay, Curtis has been moved to a new station and I am in the hiring process for CHP.
Oh… and on Tuesday I’ll be 30… I mean 21, with 9 years experience!
I’ve not been in the right frame of mind lately to write much and things have been pretty hectic with moving house and working out a new routine with being further away from our usual amenities.
Holidays as well are always hard for me, which I have mentioned before. I am struggling with some depression, and haven’t been back to see my psychiatrist since the initial visit. Again, things have just been crazy around here!
We are finally moved into our new house though, everything is coming together slowly, but boxes are being emptied and a few days out of the many that have passed since we moved, my laundry pile has only been a small mound rather than its usual colossal mountain. Jinsey is acting his normal self now, he’s eating more, socializing and is completely off of all of his medication, including the anxiety meds which were making him act rather strangely. He will be on a prescription diet for the rest of his life, but it’s a small price to pay for his health and to have a happy cat snuggling up on the bed at night.
Christmas is literally a week away and I feel mostly prepared for it. I don’t cook Christmas dinner so I don’t have that worry on my plate, but I did host dinner for the family this past week. I’ve bought the kids presents apart from a few pairs of pajamas each and I already sent a small box of goodies to England for my mom, last month. Curtis and I don’t buy each other gifts, but he did get me a new jogging stroller so I can start running with Mia more often. I have taken it out for a spin a few times and now I just need to be consistent in my exercising to get the most use out of it!
Really life if just kind of a blur right now, the days are kind of melting into one another and I am hoping that the new year brings with it more clarity, more peace of mind and less anxiety.
However you celebrate this holiday season, I hope that you are not alone. I hope that whatever you do, you have a smile on your face and love in your heart.
With the end of another year fast approaching, I’ve been thinking about all the things that this year has embodied. It’s had some extreme ups and downs, but has really been a leap into a new chapter of our lives in the process.
At the beginning of this year we were six months into living in our first house, chasing around a 14 month old and trying for baby #2. By March we had found out we were expecting, taking a birthday trip to Monterey and Calvin experienced his first trip to the beach.
Mid way through this year we knew we were expecting a baby girl. We took an anniversary trip to the family cabin in Mendocino and made some lasting memories with the ones we love. At this point in the year, it had really been all high points. As the year went on, we experienced some lows. The passing of my granddad in England was a blow that I hadn’t expected. And following that, a tragic event on Curtis’ side of the family rocked us all.
Alexander Graham Bell is quoted as saying “When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.”
I hope that we head into this new year with some clarity. There are holes in our lives that will never be filled, but they leave lasting memories that inevitably will follow us into this new chapter, and I hope will remind us to embrace every moment with the people we love, to focus on the upswing of our lives and to fully embrace the changes that have been and that are to come.
Who knows what is to come, what a strange and wonderful journey we are on!
To those reading this, I wish you the happiest of holidays and the greatest of New Years!